That really is the golden question. How do you be with him when he’s straight? It’s really going to be an important question for you to answer.
I really don’t know the answer to this one. For a man to be into another man… he would at least be bisexual. At the very least. At least that is what I believe.
Personally, I think that doing something with ONE man ONE time would at least make you curious… and after having sex multiple times and still staying just as intense… would lead me to believe that he’s bisexual… again… at the very least.
So why does that matter? Because I think you can look at this a bit differently. His body does crave you… HE craves you. He’s just having some issues coming to terms with himself. That would be what I would believe. Now does that mean much? Maybe. Maybe not. The sex can sometimes be very important in a decision making process… and sometimes not. It really depends upon the person.
In any event, the bigger question here actually doesn’t matter much on what he calls himself. How do you be with someone who is afraid? This is where you have to decide for yourself if you are going to be OK with him never changing. Why do I say that? A man changes when a man wants to. That sounds like machismo, right?! Well, what I mean is that it’s impossible for someone to change if they don’t feel that they should. No matter who tells them that they should… it needs to make sense to them to change.
So why am I saying that? If you think he is the one for you… then that means you need to be OK with the idea that he may never change from this. That’s worst case. I’d like to think that as people continue on their journey, they do naturally change… but some people don’t. And we’ll never know that answer, unfortunately.
I guess this really boils back down to whether or not you can find happiness with him this way, and whether or not you would be willing to live with his fear. Because accepting him… means accepting the way he is… and how he feels. We can always hope for change, but change can’t be imposed… he would have to want to get past that fear.
Is it possible? Sure. I would never tell you that it’s hopeless as nobody could ever predict the future. So holding out hope that he will change isn’t anywhere out of the realm of possibility. But I guess, at the end of the day, for me… I would say that you have to accept him for where he is and truly be cool with it.
What does THAT mean? That means there are probably times where he won’t want you too close.. or in public… may want to walk away from you… or go to movies and leave that “straight guy” space between each other by having a seat between you… or maybe he won’t want to go out because he’s afraid of who may see you guys even tho you may be on the other side of town. And that’s just scratching the surface.
So… only you can answer this question. It has to come from you… why? Because if you choose to continue with him, you’re accepting him that way. And NOBODY can tell you how to make up your mind on this. Why? Because we are all different. I can’t tell you to let him go because he’s afraid. I can’t tell you to stay with him if he’s afraid.
All I can do is tell you that the decision really needs to be weighed out by you. You have to be ok with it all.
I hope this helps some. It’s a really difficult question because every person has their own set of expectations and desires in a partner. Know yours… and that should give you your answer.
Let me know if that helps!
Never limit where you find your man. You’ll be surprised at how it happens. :-) I’m not sure as to why you would want to limit yourself. He may turn up anywhere.
You could try OKCupid, single groups at the LGBT center, meetup.org may have some groups in your area… anywhere really. There may even be an interracial group that caters specifically to what you’re wanting.
You want love in your life. That may take some time. Just take a deep breath… and push on. You’ll find him. :-)
I’m not sure if there are any specific site that you can check out. Maybe one of my followers knows of a good place since you are very specific on what you’re looking for… straight acting white guy that likes black guys.
I am confident that you will find your man. :-D RAWR!
I know you like him. That much is clear, but why are you going through such a rigorous process just to have a friendship with him? I’m a bit confused here.
There is a level at which two people care for each other and it comes out as aggression… sarcasm… all kinds of stuff like that. The challenge is that it doesn’t usually go the direction that people want.
You want him to know you the way you “really are” and to stop looking down on you. I can’t make that happen. In fact, nobody can make him see you in any other way than how he sees you. So what do you do? You embrace who you are… be the best YOU that you can be… focus on the things that make you happy… and see what happens.
You can’t force someone to see you in a certain way. It’s not possible. A person will feel manipulated. You just have to be the person you want him to see… if that’s truly who you are.
You both react from each other. It sounds like it can get pretty explosive with you guys.
It may be best for you two to take some time off from each other. Re-sort your priorities. Why do that? When you’re too close to the issue… you lose a lot of focus… a LOT. You know what I’m talking about. There are times when you guys fight about things that just don’t make a ton of sense. It means you’re too close to the situation. The drama and frustration just builds and builds and then you both snap at each other. It gets explosive for a bit, and then everyone gets back into their respective corners.
I think that taking some time away to get a better perspective will really help this situation. If you think that will kill what’s left of your friendship, then you really have to ask yourself what it is that you’re fighting for. What do you want? If you want to continue with what you have… you surely can…but what IS IT that you guys have?! If you’re fighting and bickering…then maybe… you just have a connection… not even a friendship.
I always think that taking some time away is the best option. And if that doesn’t solve anything…then you have to ask yourself if it may just be better that you both go your separate ways for awhile.
Let me know what you think. I know you want to save your friendship but is that what this is? And how motivated are you due to your attraction to him? You need to know some of these things. Look deep into your emotions… and ask yourself the hard questions. You need to be honest with yourself.
I’m here for you. This isn’t easy… but we can get through it. :-)
I hope that helps!
Ok… onto the final part…
Onto part 3…
OKCupid is where I would start online. You can also check out some singles groups at the LGBT center. :-)
The issue is that there are so many different types of men out there. Men who want a relationship… men who want to fuck… men who don’t know what they want… and sorting through all of that seems daunting.
What helps, to me, is to be very clear what you’re looking for on your profiles and communication with others. It’s not going to stop it from happening, but it should help keep away SOME of the ones that you’re not interested in.
The best thing that you can do is to keep positive… knowing that your man is out there looking for you. It may take more time than you think possible…but it will happen. You WILL find him.
You’re learning a lot about men. Take your time when you’re dating them… as you will find the genuine ones through time. A guy who is just horny usually will want something fairly immediate (within a few weeks/months). You’re seeing that for yourself. Learn with each experience with a guy. You’ll start to really see the genuine ones from the ones who just want to play.
There’s something interesting to think about when it comes to “luck” with guys. All of us… ALL of us are unlucky when it comes to meeting men until we meet the one for us. You know? I had bad luck before meeting Chris. Why? Finding the one in a crowd of millions takes time. Some people find something sooner than others…but ALL of us don’t come out of the gate meeting the man of our dreams. So instead of looking at each situation and getting more and more lonely… see each situation as a chance to better ourselves for when he comes along. :-) I mean it. I’ve learned a lot from past failed relationships. We ALL do.
Press on. Stay positive. You WILL find your man. I know it. :-)
Let me know if that helps!
Well that’s really up to you. Do you want to try something with antoher man?
It could be that you’re bisexual… having an interest in both women and men.
But given that you have never really gotten off to straight porn would make it seem like you’re more into men than women. That would be my guess.
Take your time… it sounds like you’re discovering what it is that you like. There is no rush.
As far as diving in… be careful. It’s alluring to want to go crazy in your self discovery phase… but I think the best option right now is to sort through what it is that you like…
What gave you a semi when watching gay porn? What drives you crazy about it? It’s something to start thinking about.
I’m here. We will sort it out together. Just take your time. Don’t rush anything… and above all, be safe. Don’t let anyone tell you to do anything that is unsafe. If so, don’t.
Don’t worry about labeling yourself at this point. Just sort out what it is that you do and don’t like. You’ll figure it out. Promise.
And you got me in your corner. We’ll figure it out together.
I hope that helps!
I think the first thing to do is talk about what you guys have in common… the class that your’e both in. Look to bring up something in regards to the class. Do you need help? Ask him if he can help you out. Are you good at the class subject and want to offer your help? Do it! What about make a joke about something that happened in class? There are a ton of different things that you can talk about with him.
If he’s interested in something more, he’ll be just as eager to hang out and talk. He may be deathly shy… but see how it goes! Talk to him and you’ll start to see if he’s interested. :-)
Without knowing him much, it’ll be hard to gauge his reactions at first… so just go slow… take your time. If he doesn’t seem to be interested, give him some space… like a few days or a couple of weeks… and then try once more to chat with him about class. If he still doesn’t respond… I’d leave him be.
That’s just how I’d handle it. Of course, you can do as you please…but I think you’ll get somewhere by talking about the one thing you both have in common… that class. And as you get to know him, you’ll discover more of his interests… and then you can branch out from there. :-)
I hope that helps!
Gosh, I’m so sorry that you’re experiencing this. I truly am. This isn’t easy.
I have a million questions… as I’m sure you do as well…
He said he no longer wanted to be gay? Have you both explored why he feels this way? What do you think brought this on? Has he been having any issues or any significant changes lately?
And for you… what made you decide to give up on him yesterday? Was there something that happened or did you just decide to finally go through with it? I know it wasn’t an easy choice. I know you’re going through a lot.
Unfortunately, I can’t tell you how long he’ll go through this… or if he’ll ever be comfortable with himself once again. But I do think that 3 years is definitely long enough to give this some additional time… presumably. What has he discovered in the last three months of questioning his sexuality?
But let’s think through some of this… you’ve still kissed and made love… even after he’s told you that he no longer wants to be gay? Be careful here. The last thing you want is for him to one day decide that you coerced him into doing something. While I know that is the FARTHEST from the truth… if he’s uncertain of things right now… the best thing to do is be supportive.
Maybe keep the conversations up about his thoughts on homosexuality. I think that would definitely be worth the effort.
You’ve also said that you have decided to give up. But, it also sounds like you’ve not really decided that for sure. I know that you don’t want to make a poor decision here… but you really have to decide what is best for yourself. Remember that.
There are truly a lot of directions you can take this. Personally, I hate seeing any type of relationship slow down/end so I think I would always lean you towards working things out… but I do also acknowledge that there are times when you really just need to do something for yourself. You need to decide what this is for you… do you need to stay and work on things or is it better for you both to move on? There is no guarantee that things with him will change… so there is some risk involved in staying.
If I were in your shoes, I think I would try and spend more time with him trying to better understand why he feels like he no longer wants to be gay. I would explore those feelings with him. I would think understanding him may also help him to see how amazing his homosexuality truly is.
If you feel that you’ve done that, then it does make sense to back away.
Let’s talk more about this. It’s a really big subject and I want to make sure you got everything you need to make the best choice you can. I’m here for you.
I hope this helps a little bit. Just remember that you aren’t alone… I understand… and will do what I can to help.