The choice is totally up to you. I think it’s a good idea, but only once you’ve made the decision that you’re ready.
If you think your friends may already know… then you have to remind yourself that if they DO already have an idea AND they’re STILL your friend… then you have a pretty good idea of how they’re going to react. And that’s a good thing! :-)
It sounds like your friend Erika would be a good person to start with since you trust her so much. I think you can be open to letting her know. In fact, I bet if you started the conversation, she may be able to fill in the gaps and have the conversation with you. But again, only when you’re ready.
I know it’s difficult. I’m sure you spent countless hours thinking about it, but you DO have support. You have me, you will have your friend Erika… and others will also be there to support you.
So once you’re ready, let’s do this together. :-)
If you need anything else, please let me know!